Mom

Mom. I’m almost at a loss for words. How can I even begin to explain the appreciation I have for you? To this day I’m not sure if I truly understand everything you have done for me. The older I get the more clear my past is. I feel guilt for the things I didn’t understand then. I’m more evolved every day because of you and I’m still trying to grasp the concept for never ending love. You are the only person who has been there for me through everything and you never once complained. Thank you.

From the time I was conceived you were so selfless. I was everything you had ever wanted. I took that for granted over and over and you never said, ” but look what I did“. You always asked, “what else can I do“. You saw into the future that my father wouldn’t be able to handle things full time, I could never understand that until I was older. I would cry and be full of anger and ask why. Back then I wanted what the other kids had but I know now I never would have had what they did. Thank you.

You always gave me all that you could. You tried to show me that happiness didn’t come in a box or a bag and it surely did not have a price. You showed me that being kind is always more valuable than being “cool”. You showed me how to be the most understanding and empathetic which at times is a blessing and a curse because I feel the constant need to help. From the time I could remember you were giving even when you yourself had nothing to give. Thank you.

When other moms were getting their hair and nails done we were at the park or swimming or watching a movie. When I got older I noticed and confronted you saying “mom please go get your nails done, do something for yourself“. It took you a while but you finally understood. You made me your everything but you realized that could not last forever. It was hard for me to watch you slowly do things for yourself but only because I never knew you to do them. You started working out and eating right and eventually you found someone who would love you like you deserved. I watched this and I learned to be picky and take my time. Thank you.

I adore the person you are today. You think your happiest days were with me as a child but my happiest days have been with you as my friend. I’m the luckiest person in the whole world to have a mom and a best friend all in one. I can tell you absolutely anything and you won’t yell or be upset. Time and time again you have taught me to be appreciative. You taught me that no matter how old you get you can always grow and change and learn. You taught me that you can make mistakes and you can fall but you can always get back up and try again. Thank you.

I don’t think I could ever repay you. Some day I will give you everything you deserve. I will give you everything you want. If anyone deserves the world it is you. I want you to enjoy every minute of every day doing whatever you want. You gave me all this time to be a kid and be selfish and I want you to have that too. Be selfish. Relax. Spend time on you. Some day I’ll take you back to Sweden and you can tell me all about the time you spent there. Hearing you laugh and tell stories and give me better advise than any book or doctor can give is priceless. Thank you.

Happy Mother’s Day everyone!

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  1. Love this. I can totally relate. This was my first Mother’s Day as a mother myself and the overwhelming emotion and appreciation I felt toward my own mom made this holiday 10x more important that it’s ever been. I just now understand the idea of truly celebrating all that she does.
    Feedback: Love your relatable writing style and the layout of your blog, my one recommendation would be to either shorten the post or reduce the font size, the large font size and length can get a little overwhelming.

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    1. Thank you! That’s great feedback! And yes, I’m not a mother yet myself but I wish there was a way to give my mom the world because she really has done so much for me! And congrats on the first mothers day for yourself!

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